not like the other podcasts: raw, unfiltered, real.

2025: a new year, the same struggles.

In this raw and chaotic rantcast, I spiral through the void of existence: depression, change, humanity’s dumpster fire, and the art of doing nothing while wanting everything. There’s no advice, no sugarcoating—just one guy unraveling. Join me as I reflect on 2024's mental breakdowns, rage against life’s pointless choices, and try to figure out why the we’re all here. You’ll laugh, cringe, or maybe just stare into the abyss with me.
Topics Covered:
Why humans don’t change—they just spiral.
Podcasting as a sad artist’s canvas.
Men, emotions, and why zombies have better emotional range.
Reflecting on 2024’s mental chaos: hospitals, meds, and the year of unraveling.
Life as an obligation versus a choice.
Dark humor about God’s depression and humanity’s failure.
Existential dread: past, present, and future as fleeting illusions.
Ranting about Twitch, YouTube, and refusing to simp for streamers.
Family trauma and surviving toxic relationships.
The beauty of despair and the absurdity of hope.
Why 2025 is just another year in the void.
Feeling useless while admiring others’ success.
Internet legacy: fading into lost media oblivion.
Coping with life’s emptiness by ranting into a mic.

pov: your friend rants to you at midnight about money when drunk.

Join me as I dive into the void of modern society, questioning everything from AI girlfriend ads to the moral corruption of money, marketing, and fame. A brutally honest rant about selfishness, exploitation, social media sacrifice, and why we’re all doomed. This isn't self-improvement; it’s survival.
Topics in today's episode: self-improvement, narcissism, selfishness, social media toxicity, digital sacrifice, the algorithm, government lies, authority figures, personal boundaries, AI girlfriends, emotional exploitation, marketing ethics, business morality, capitalism, consumerism, loneliness, rejection, societal manipulation, school system flaws, money poisoning everything, connection and isolation, the unknown, societal stagnation, the taint of fame, hopelessness, depression, anxiety, medication reliance, fear of change, existential dread, societal norms, systemic failure, longing for simplicity, living off the land, why we’ll never be happy.

superman’s real power? control explained, an audio vlog

In this raw, unfiltered episode, we dive deep into the chaos of modern life, discussing everything from the illusion of control to the pressure of societal norms. We explore Superman's cultural significance, the dark undercurrents of nihilism, and the importance of hope for the next generation. Plus, we unpack the harsh reality of capitalism, abortion debates, and the inner battle of self-awareness. This is not your typical self-help podcast—it's a gritty, unapologetic look at life, the universe, and everything in between.
Topics in today's episode: Superman, nihilism, cultural reflection, society's rules, societal control, the evil superhero trend, abortion debates, motherhood, personal beliefs, self-help gurus, authority control, algorithms, kids and inspiration, loss of control, drugs, capitalism, self-awareness, psychosis, OCD, internal monologue, freedom, rebellion, therapy through content, self-improvement, radicalism, and the purpose of life.

fall asleep to 25 minutes of love, hate, anxiety, & surviving 2025 (audio vlog)

In today's chaotic episode, we dive deep into overthinking, love, hate, the reality of relationships, and surviving in a world that's falling apart. With a mix of raw humor and brutally honest thoughts, we tackle everything from self-love to toxic fandoms, personal demons, and the struggle for freedom. Is life a satire or absurdism? Does it even matter anymore? Tune in if you're ready to explore this messy existence with me.
Topics in today's episode: overthinking, self-love, hate, relationships, cheating, equality, societal expectations, family drama, nihilism vs. hope, New Year's reflections, champagne vs. wine, personal freedom, debt collectors, Austin Powers, absurdism, satire, life struggles, toxic fandoms, Marvel/DC, Minecraft, survival anxiety, inside-out miniseries, love and emotions, self-identity

drones, lies, & the government: what you missed, an audio vlog

edit: yes i thought i was going to schedule this earlier lol i got my days mixed up and thought i had nothing last week well the content is all still relevant, stick around
In this unfiltered, off-the-cuff episode, I dive into everything from the looming shadow of government surveillance, drones, and time manipulation, to existential dread, personal rants, and the struggles of podcasting. It's the last episode of 2024 (i guess that was a lie...), and I'm not holding back. Tune in for the raw thoughts and chaotic reflections on life, culture, and the grind of making it big in a world that doesn't care.
Topics in today's episode: government surveillance, drones, societal control, time manipulation, daylight savings, existential dread, personal goals, podcasting struggles, introversion, New Year's reflections, society and culture, introvert rants, personal growth, thoughts on privacy, coping with OCD, overthinking, personal milestones, random musings

drones, psyops, & government gaslighting: is this black mirror irl?

Mysterious SUV-sized drones buzzing over Jersey. Government shrugging like they didn’t see it. Psyops? Aliens? Bezos? In this unfiltered rant, we break down the chaos, conspiracies, and why no one seems to care. Stay skeptical, stay weird—because something’s hovering above, and it’s not fine.
Topics in today’s episode: government drones, conspiracy theories, mysterious sightings, psyops, alien theories, mass hysteria, media distraction, surveillance programs, military technology, Black Mirror comparisons, post-truth society, internet apathy, tech paranoia, existential dread, Jeff Bezos and Prime Air, DARPA projects, Twitter memes, government gaslighting, radar capabilities, corporate dystopia, societal numbness, and why no one trusts anything that hovers.

burnout, comics, and why life feels like a bad plot twist.

a quiet dive into chaotic clarity, where burnout isn’t burnout, struggles aren’t struggles, and cereal with milk becomes existential. wandering through fragmented thoughts on personal burnout, societal pressure, comics, and death’s gender, this episode is as disjointed as it is unsettlingly relatable. topics in today’s episode: burnout, mental illness, stress, employment struggles, family tension, media consumption, schizophrenia, existential analogies, death archetypes, comics, galactus, mcu speculation, silver surfer, chaotic musings, and fractured identity.

are you surviving or surrendering? wrestling with hope, trauma, & the human condition.

a raw, introspective journey where boundaries blur between salvation and surrender. today, a voice wrestles with self-reliance, maternal bonds, societal expectations, and the futility of hope. these unsettling reflections dare you to confront the truths you ignore, with fleeting glimpses of humor laced in despair.
topics in today's episode: self-reliance, maternal resentment, generational trauma, manipulation, mental health struggles, societal pressures, survival tactics, nihilism, personal growth, identity, emotional detachment, toxic family dynamics, spiritual introspection, the concept of the soul, betrayal, the human condition, morality, individuality, financial instability, trauma bonds, independence, parental influence, generational cycles, suicide ideation, manipulation tactics, coping mechanisms, self-perception, existential dread, online presence, content creation struggles, toxic positivity, alienation, life purpose, self-acceptance, escapism, creative expression, desperation, authenticity.

is isolation, ai, & the monotony of existence all we have left?

i spiral through fleeting thoughts on live streams turned to lost media, twitch's pretentious allure, ai's underestimated tricks, and the crushing monotony of existence. noise fills the void as i navigate isolation, stagnant ambition, suffocating dependency, and a world indifferent to my existence. what am i holding on to?
topics in today's episode: lost media, twitch streaming limitations, youtube subscriber barriers, ai for unexpected tasks, personal stagnation, societal apathy, unrelenting despair, mental exhaustion, gratitude vs. dissatisfaction, narcissism in content creation, dependency struggles, family dynamics, economic precarity, finding meaning amidst futility, coping mechanisms, inner conflict, dark humor as survival, and the illusion of independence.

anxiety, paranoia, & existential ocd simulation

*new upload schedule: every monday and friday... still midnight thought (for the aesthetic)!
i find myself adrift in scripted musings unraveling fragments of a restless mind while questioning the universe, existence, and the prison of self-awareness. shadows lurk, paranoia whispers, and meaning dances on the edge of absurdity. join me as i explore the unsettling, dissect solitude, and stare into the void, hoping it stares back—because connection is fleeting, but wandering is eternal.
topics in today's episode: existential musings, borderline cringe, overanalysis, therapy as a concept, mental health doubts, depression, anxiety, isolation, social media struggles, neet lifestyle, overthinking, self-awareness, hyper-body experiences, maternal entrapment, intimacy dreams, crows as omens, numerology, surveillance paranoia, childhood baggage, diagnosis skepticism, manic epiphanies, squirrels as spies, podcasting as catharsis, dark humor, raw vulnerability, life’s false promises, and the futility of answers.