not like the other podcasts: raw, unfiltered, real.

numerology secrets, divine guilt, and surviving in a broken society.

i hear crows scream balance as my mind spirals between divine repentance and existential dread; reflections on numerology, divine abandonment, social survival, and making sense of being alive in a meaningless world.
topics in today's episode: numerology, spiritual symbolism, mental health spirals, societal expectations, the fear of failure, existential crises, toxic family dynamics, freelancing frustrations, the weight of repentance, religion's contradictions, fatalistic thinking, work-from-home struggles, streaming logistics, grief for lost tech, propaganda in media, processing guilt, niche entertainment analysis, and why surviving feels like a scam.

forehead hurts & life is a joke i keep telling myself.

Wading through migraines, ramen disasters, and existential crises, I unravel why life feels like a cosmic prank. Between society's flaws, cats freeloading, and the moon landing's irrelevance, I find solace in ranting about influencers, digital prisons, and why squirrels are ADHD spies.
Topics in today's episode: migraines, insomnia, boredom, ramen fails, social media panopticon, cereal mascots, time zones elitism, plant feelings, cats freeloading, influencers as a plague, moon landing apathy, AI extinction fears, mental clutter, existential dread, manifesting positivity, death wish humor.
Brace for chaos.

time is an illusion, reality is fake, i don’t know what’s happening anymore.

I spiral through therapy schedules, forgotten days, anime superiority, dissociation vibes, existential dread, and why OCD ruins dishwashing while Black Butler saves souls. Topics in today's episode: depression, psychosis, hustle culture, nostalgia, spiritual chaos, Reddit drama, mental health, anime wars, toxic parenting, unresolved trauma, doomsday vibes, nihilistic laundry, cataclysmic biblical metaphors, petty family texts, bipolar friendships, self-improvement clichés, gym enlightenment, societal collapse, and how cleaning dishes feels like life or death.
Brace yourself. It’s a ride.

confronting shadows in the mirror of society.

A live descent into fractured musings, self-reflection, and surreal observations. Topics in today's episode: identity liminality, transgender narratives, impulsive thoughts, trauma validation, mental health stigmas, spiritual awakening gone wrong, toxic positivity, Reddit's failure, live-stream absurdities, society's voyeurism, Twitch insanity, existential dread, and disturbing family dynamics. Dive into the chaos. Or don’t. It’s all meaningless anyway.

the abyss whispers back unraveling existence in a forgotten echo.

I sit here wondering why, watching YouTube as life unravels its strange patterns. Memory is fleeting, trauma sticks, and my brain is a twisted joke. Time feels heavy, society is corrupt, and therapy is a faraway dream. The moon calls, but I won’t answer. My niche is chaos, solitude, and dark realizations. Today’s thoughts spiral into liminality, YouTubers, poverty, corrupt systems, existentialism, elemental destruction, dark humor, loneliness, failed ambitions, and a dying universe.
Topics in today’s episode: liminality, memory loss, trauma, societal corruption, existential dread, the moon’s betrayal, therapy struggles, nihilism, solitude, chaotic humor, YouTube obsession, creative stagnation, bending techniques, death’s inevitability, dark humor, firecracker’s allure, the abyss of existence, and living life to its dullest fullest.

he unravels identity as the voice of guilt & cosmic truths.

He questions everything, from existence to God's intentions. The weight of karma, broken families, and the abyss of faith blur the line between justice and cruelty. Mind reshapes reality, uncovering unsettling truths we all hide from ourselves.
Topics in today's episode: guilt, karma, justice, divine mistakes, toxic families, societal flaws, God's role, human suffering, cosmic balance, redemption, faith, the void, morality, parenting, destruction, healing, love, grief, darkness, hope, truth, existentialism, and self-discovery

i taste noodles and hear echoes of myself.

Today, I’m unraveling the noodle paradox, chasing clarity with microphones, and wandering through the vast loneliness of 11th grade. I grapple with a ramen crisis, reflect on fleeting friendships, and navigate the haunting labyrinth of memories and societal isolation. My voice is both my prison and my escape, as I piece together the fragments of who I am.
Topics in today's episode: loneliness, ramen experiments, microphone musings, school bullying, fleeting connections, emotional isolation, therapeutic reflections, codependency, societal norms, firebending hacks, surreal humor, existential questions, past relationships, heartbreak, cultural musings, cats as emotional anchors, random internet finds, podcasting identity, grief recovery, mental health musings.

i slip between words i wish i’d said and words that disappear.

It's November, and I can't quite tell if I feel anything, or maybe I’m just here, observing, wrapped in two layers, fading in and out of scenes from some half-remembered life. Thoughts blur, words stumble; it's like I’m watching myself from the edge of something vast and dark. I talk about the fractured moments, the questions that flicker in and out of clarity, and the feeling of holding it all just barely together. Listen if you want; I’m mostly just here.
Topics in today’s episode: self-reflection, suicidal ideation, society’s views on mental health, personal struggles with hopelessness, existential musings, loneliness in crowds, fear and strength, mental health narratives, the strange peace of lurking online, personal truths and half-truths, dark humor, the haunting beauty of isolation, Overwatch reflections, childhood nostalgia, rebuilding from trauma, fleeting nature of joy, existential absurdities, healing from hurt

wandering alone through pop & psyche, feat. jimmy olsen.

I find myself here, talking again. Talking about everything and nothing—Jimmy Olsen’s red hair, the unending changes of Superman and Lois, and the unfiltered blur of our digital lives. Somehow, it's all linked, part of this strange inner magic I call “being.” I wonder if any of it makes sense, or if it's just static. Today, I watch and talk, argue and surrender, laugh and linger. Each word is a spell, each thought a flicker of something real or imagined. Join me if you want. Just listen, maybe.
Topics in today's episode: Superman and Lois, Jimmy Olsen character analysis, What We Do in the Shadows recap, digital interactions, Reddit and Discord communities, the haunting of the depressive mind, personal journaling, comic book nostalgia, DC Comics reboots, the blurred line between fantasy and reality, challenges in mental health, reflections on psychosis and self-awareness, the impact of parental attention, the struggle with change, and finding comfort in solitude.

when monday feels like friday but it’s not.

Welcome to my podcasting limbo, where I wonder if it’s Friday while it's barely Monday morning. The red, blue, and yellow lights blend into something strange, something Lana warned about. It’s 11:11 on 11/11, and I’m almost convinced today’s a cosmic accident. I recount Lana lyrics, darkly funny movie misfires, and near-creek drowning incidents, but my thoughts keep slipping into places I’m not sure I want to follow. Am I just a spectator here, or is there something I’m meant to feel in the quiet chaos? Join me, if you’re willing to linger in the unsettling echo.
Topics in today’s episode: Lana Del Rey lyrics, surrealism in daily life, unfiltered rants, media pressure on creators, YouTube critiques, conspiracy theories, paranormal musings, feeling unhinged, nostalgia for simpler times, near-death experiences, navigating masculine identity, isolation, social media’s emptiness, autumn darkness, coping with past traumas, cosmic coincidence, being a “father figure” to followers, existential dread, finding meaning in confusion, internal and external shadows, and the beauty of letting go